Right now it is grey and rainy outside, but I am toasty warm in my cozy little house here in Thomas, Idaho. I am sitting here on my couch thinking of all the things I should be, and usually am doing. But today I just want to sit right here, rest my mind, and enjoy the calmness in my home. Is that such a crime? I have been cursed with a mind that is always racing, and a body that can't sit still. I always have to have a plan, but not today!
I have had several conversations lately with my sweet mom about trying to enjoy this stage of life I am in, and count my blessings. It is so much easier to focus on the things that and not perfect in life, but it just makes life miserable. Instead, I want to enjoy this time of my life because it can be SO much fun!
This time of lide for me is time for just Cart and I to enjoy each other, time to enjoy the little things. I get to go to the gym, I get to make dinner, watch TV, journal, go to sleep early, sleep through the night, go to work, make money. I don't have homework, I don't have a lot of obligations other than to punch the clock. I have a lot of time to do what I want. This can sound selfish. It would be selfish if I lived this way all my life. However, I have every intention of raising a beautiful family, being a busy stay at home mom, and not living this "all about me lifestyle" forever.
Instead of wishing this time of my life away, I am "Committing to making this a happy time!" as my mom puts it! My mom sent me home with a beautiful picture of a little African hand clutched in a hand of a white individual.
She asked that when I'm having hard times, that I look at that picture and be reminded of little African children Cart dedicated 2 years of his life serving on his mission, that would give up so much to be able to get the education Cart is getting. Also, think of those hands that Cart and I have made a goal to serve in our lives. With this opportunity we have been given to be here in Idaho so that Carter can gain an education, we will hopefully be able to lift SOME hands in SOME way throughout our lives!! So far, I have looked at that sweet picture and it almost immediately eliminates negative, self pittying thoughts that tend to make me feel sad, misrable, or homesick!
So thank you Mom for you motherly intution! It was just what I needed!!
On that note, I think I'll go make some hot chocolate with LOTS of whip cream!! :)
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